travis' brain dump

this weekend was probably one of the better ones i’ve had… i’ve gotten stuff done, chilled out with friends, gone cruisin, cooked out, listened to music…. it’s just been pretty good… i figured i’d post up another blog while i was still in a great mood. props off to all my friends this weekend who i hung out with.

friday was great… wound down the day, then hit up old chicago with arwen, damir and andy. we played the trivia game there, stuffed ourselves and all around had a great time. we then came back to the house, chilled out and enjoyed the rest of the evening playing video games (SSX 3 to be exact)… what a great start.

saturday was awesome, i did nothing all day pretty much… it was rather enjoyable… kris, andy and jesse were over for a while sat night… i got kris’ phone hacked so he could use it on his carrier, most awesome… however, it sucked that it took us a couple hours to do… we ordered pizza, watched a movie and overall had a pretty chill evening…

sunday was pretty much the same… arwen wasnt feeling well but that’s okay, she pretty much chilled out and was feeling pretty decent by the evening… andy and i got bored around 8pm and decided for fun we’d tear apart the spare bedroom (that i’m converting to a guest room) and made our way 3/4 through it… my backyard and deck now have a pile of wood on them. lol also got to meet Andy’s friend Amy (hope i spelled her name right) and her friend Travis… haha good times… we cooked burgers and hung out, very enjoyable… oh yeah, funny part of the evening was watching jesse and chris carver show up at 11:30 *WASTED* — i couldn’t help but laugh at them… dorks. (no they weren’t driving, sammie was at the wheel for em) just a funny end to the night… it pays to be the sober one when others decied to get trashed… you can’t buy that kind of entertainment..

monday was awesome… got up at 11:30am! lazed around the house for a couple hours, talked to my mom and chilled. Jesse came over about 2pm or so and we decided to do a little cruise… mike sooz came over with his girl and we headed out… fueled up, washed the car and headed for fort collins. we met up with this girl Jessica that Jesse’s likin (and obviously its reciprocated, lol) and Ashton… we then headed back down to my place to grill out and hang… man, so good to hang out with everyone again… haha funny stuff… didn’t realize this when we first met up with Jessica, but I already met her about a year ago. when her and Jesse pulled up to my house she was all ‘ i’ve so been here before ‘ and we reconnected… amazing how small this world really is. everyone just left about 25 minutes ago, such good times.

it’s a shame i’ve got to get up in 7 hours for work, but oh well, this weekend was a good one, one of the better ones that i’ve had in a long time… thanks to all my friends. love you guys. i just hope i can get a chance to do it again sometime… skylab is in two weeks and if i can work out a babysitter for the kiddo, i’m so going to do it.

anyway time for bed… lol

i can’t believe i’ve been this busy… i thought to myself this morning ‘ i need to go out and put something up on my blog site ‘ then pondered how long it had been since i last posted… i figured at most a week, not almost 10 days. lol oh well …

so as i’ve said, ive been pretty busy… getting everything setup for arwen’s daycare and finishing up stuff on this refinance was a pain in the rear end for sure but, finally everything is falling into place and it appears as though the stress is letting up. we’ve had a couple good humpdays and good weekend since my last post, however there is nothing funny to comment on as i was in a daze most of those occasions… got a three-day coming up however, so there should be something fun for sure after this one… lol (i can hear andy plotting now)

today is a pretty slow day… my brain is only semi-functional so i’m getting some things cleared off but not as much as i had hoped… maybe tuesday after having a three day weekend i’ll be ready to rip through this stuff and get it all done. lol

anyway, just wanted to throw a pulse posting up and let everyone know i’m still alive and kickin.

later

first off, im not depressed, i’m just thinking outloud and sharing my thoughts here… lol

it’s funny how we, as individuals can be our toughest critic…  despite how many positive qualities others around us praise us over, some of us seem to find ways in those quiet moments to forget those positives and focus on the negatives… in some cases even think up faults with ourselves. i think at some point in time we’ve all battled with ourselves over things of this nature… 

what sparked this is that someone asked me within the last couple of days… ‘ do you see yourself the same way others do? ‘ and it made me think… it occured to me that how we perceive ourselves and how others perceive us are often not the same. some of us think to ourselves ‘ am i a really good person? ‘ and truly wonder if we are… sort of a self evaluation gone awry perhaps… i don’t know…

for example… some people say i’m funny and have a great sense of humor…. some people say that i’m a good listener and that i give good advice, however sometimes i feel as though i’m not that good at either… i however, the way others perceive me in these situations indicates that i am good with both situations and i seem to help or make them laugh. as I said earlier it’s odd how we’re often our toughest critic and it sometimes blinds us to some of our best qualities.

with all of that said, i think we as individuals might be a lot happier with our lives if we would just stop judging ourselves and continue to express ourselves without letting our self concious thoughts get in the way. so now i ask you… do you see yourself the same way others do?

i’m done rambling on…. 🙂

later

i’m sitting here staring at my 360, it’s calling to me to get on FFXI … but if i pick up that controller i will so regret it in the morning… i’ll probably be in the game for at least 5 hours… lol *shrug* it’s not like I have to get up early or anything… i don’t have to be up until 10… *ponder* oh what the heck.