travis' brain dump

first off, im not depressed, i’m just thinking outloud and sharing my thoughts here… lol

it’s funny how we, as individuals can be our toughest critic…  despite how many positive qualities others around us praise us over, some of us seem to find ways in those quiet moments to forget those positives and focus on the negatives… in some cases even think up faults with ourselves. i think at some point in time we’ve all battled with ourselves over things of this nature… 

what sparked this is that someone asked me within the last couple of days… ‘ do you see yourself the same way others do? ‘ and it made me think… it occured to me that how we perceive ourselves and how others perceive us are often not the same. some of us think to ourselves ‘ am i a really good person? ‘ and truly wonder if we are… sort of a self evaluation gone awry perhaps… i don’t know…

for example… some people say i’m funny and have a great sense of humor…. some people say that i’m a good listener and that i give good advice, however sometimes i feel as though i’m not that good at either… i however, the way others perceive me in these situations indicates that i am good with both situations and i seem to help or make them laugh. as I said earlier it’s odd how we’re often our toughest critic and it sometimes blinds us to some of our best qualities.

with all of that said, i think we as individuals might be a lot happier with our lives if we would just stop judging ourselves and continue to express ourselves without letting our self concious thoughts get in the way. so now i ask you… do you see yourself the same way others do?

i’m done rambling on…. 🙂

later

i’m sitting here staring at my 360, it’s calling to me to get on FFXI … but if i pick up that controller i will so regret it in the morning… i’ll probably be in the game for at least 5 hours… lol *shrug* it’s not like I have to get up early or anything… i don’t have to be up until 10… *ponder* oh what the heck.

ya know… nothing irritates me more than people who are immature… i’m sure many of you know the kind of people i’m talking about, we all know them.  

from 16 to 30 and sometimes way further, people who can’t handle the goings on of life and in turn do completely idiotic things because they choose to make up their own explainations for things and don’t explore the complete truth or the entire picture. this is just one aspect of immaturity i’m actually addressing… but its a big one. from religion to relationships with each other, people often take the “easy way” in their own mind and in turn make completed idiots of themselves by assuming the rest of the truth rather than taking the time to learn it. i’m sorry if this sounds judgemental, but it is… this is one of the very very very few things that push me to this and i can’t stress how much it frustrates me. i wish i could give an example, unfortunately that would point fingers at people so i need to keep this general but I will use a vague approach…

one of the most irritating things is assumption. assuming you know the whole truth because you ‘ read between the lines’ and thereby live your life according to such self proclaimed doctrine. you’re doing nothing but putting up barriers that will keep you from ever being content and happy with your life and in the end, leave you miserable. my message to you? be direct, ask questions, get answers, find the truth and see it for what it is… plain and simple. in the process, you might actually find your relationship with friends and maybe even family will improve once you decide to grow up a little. life is not *that* complex. sure there can be some complex issues, but thats only because people make them complex because they don’t want to take the time to explore the truth in its entirety. most things should be taken at face value… nothing more, nothing less.

grrr… sadly… i believe that even my words won’t help as this has evidently been a problem in the world since the dawn of time… i mean look at the Bible… lol 1 Corinthians 13:11 — Paul even had to point out some issues with it… hehe go Paul!

“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” 

… end rant …

for the record, for people who can’t seem to understand the point of this post because they don’t take it at face value… this is not a religious rant, don’t assume it is just because i quoted the Bible at the end — i just happened to find humor in that verse because it applies.

later

“I get paid on Friday. …which means I’ll have money until Saturday morning. :)”

i know i have paychecks that feel like this… lol