pondering…
by Travis on Aug.22, 2006, under General
first off, im not depressed, i’m just thinking outloud and sharing my thoughts here… lol
it’s funny how we, as individuals can be our toughest critic…  despite how many positive qualities others around us praise us over, some of us seem to find ways in those quiet moments to forget those positives and focus on the negatives… in some cases even think up faults with ourselves. i think at some point in time we’ve all battled with ourselves over things of this nature…Â
what sparked this is that someone asked me within the last couple of days… ‘ do you see yourself the same way others do? ‘ and it made me think… it occured to me that how we perceive ourselves and how others perceive us are often not the same. some of us think to ourselves ‘ am i a really good person? ‘ and truly wonder if we are… sort of a self evaluation gone awry perhaps… i don’t know…
for example… some people say i’m funny and have a great sense of humor…. some people say that i’m a good listener and that i give good advice, however sometimes i feel as though i’m not that good at either… i however, the way others perceive me in these situations indicates that i am good with both situations and i seem to help or make them laugh. as I said earlier it’s odd how we’re often our toughest critic and it sometimes blinds us to some of our best qualities.
with all of that said, i think we as individuals might be a lot happier with our lives if we would just stop judging ourselves and continue to express ourselves without letting our self concious thoughts get in the way. so now i ask you… do you see yourself the same way others do?
i’m done rambling on…. 🙂
later

August 25th, 2006 on 10:32
No. I sure don’t. Not all of the time, but sometimes. Some days I’ve been having such a rough day that I find myself asking, “Why are these people my friends anyways?”
That thought quickly passes…because I wouldn’t have the friends I do, if I wasn’t worth something, right?
So when times like that come around…and I doubt myself, or whatever abilities my friends see in and praise me for…I blast the shite out of some devil music…and the feeling subsides.
August 25th, 2006 on 11:45
hehe, andy – you’re one of the best friends i have, and you’re right… we wouldn’t be friends if you weren’t worth something… speakin of… can i borrow your truck again? (LOL, ok so that last part was a joke) seriously though… we’ve had this conversation before and you know how I value your friendship. you’re one of the few, very few, i’ve got here i feel i can depend on and that I truly trust.
August 25th, 2006 on 12:04
You’re not getting my Bud Light, Travis. O_O
August 25th, 2006 on 12:54
LOL… well thats good considering if i was ever to consider asking you for your beer i sure hope it wouldn’t be that garbage. 🙂